This is a late night blog I got the urge to write after I contemplated to post this photo or not. Because of the scar on my arm I recently got from cleaning this week. And suddenly I heard the Red Hot Chili Peppers playing in my head
✨ Scar tissue that I wish you saw. ✨
The scar was symbolic; wearing my heart on my sleeve despite heartbreak, being courageous to give love a chance after failed attempts, insecure, no self-love, prioritizing everyone else but herself in order to feel accepted and loved, people pleasing, accepting bread crumbs, tolerating narcissistic people, distracting herself with bad habits and poor decisions in order to avoid healing, unknowingly being co-dependent, having daddy issues years ago, and not wanting to set boundaries because of the fear of being alone.
As I looked at this photo I took today, I realized how proud I was of myself. Rising from being knocked down to the ground all my life. Yet I always kept or tried to keep a positive attitude and keep moving forward. Tonight I see it all coming together as I told my younger self all my life.
We all have wounds, scars, scar tissue, broken hearts, inner child healing needing to be done, and learning how to do all of this on top of dealing with what life throws at us. I know. It's hard, trust me. I share this tonight to remind you that it's okay to be all of these things and continue to improve ourselves every day.
However, I encourage you to continue to be courageous and forgive those that never apologized, those that broke us when all we wanted was to give love, and truly give love to others. Don't give up. Just use your pain to propel you. And most importantly: pour that love into YOU. It's worth it.
I'll leave you with a quote from Maya Angelou that I love;
"My great hope is to laugh as much as I cry; to get my work done and try to love somebody and have the courage to accept the love in return. "
Have enough courage to trust love one more time
There's always a lesson to be learned. And guess what? I recently had an epiphany; what if being broken over and over again will let the light shine through you even brighter?
Just 12 days into the year and I feel like a new person with a new love for herself and life. and that is why I'm putting myself out there in hopes to show you it's possible to overcome anything.
....🎶 maybe, with the birds you'll share that lonely view, but you'll make it to the moon even if you have to crawl.
Xoxo
AT