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The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A human who lives fully is prepared to die at any time. - Becoming a Butterfly

Becoming a Buttferfly is my autobiographical book launching this summer.

Truly I tell y'all, I cannot wait to help others with my journey in life. Becoming a butterfly ain't EZ.

Now, I want to introduce to you my philosophy series: OPERATION MODERN DOOMSDAY.

I am here to educate you on the miseducation you've been programmed to consume in society. This series also honors MF DOOM one of the G.O.A.T. in the music industry who helped shape the hip-hop we hear today.

If you're a spiritual person, you'll believe me when I say MF Doom is one of my spirit guides. LOL and no this is not a joke. As a 15 year old I started listening to him and Wu-Tang, Tribe Called Quest (named my non-profit The Vibe Called Blessed) and more of the greatest pioneers of hip-hop.

Don't believe me? So be it.

Disclaimer: I am not for everyone, and everyone is not for me.

my soul is on a budget THOUGH...

and I don't expend energy or time into things that don't serve the highest good of myself and humanity, therefore, I am here to just speak truths.

We are the ones that die when it's our time to die.

So why not live your life the way you want to?

When its time to die, let us not discover that we have never lived.

Here is the truth: we live in the matrix till we break free.

Mental programming is a thing.

There is a vail over your eyes.

Once you do the necessary inner work of The Dark Night of the Soul as Carl Jung explains.

You find your soul.


I myself started to question:

What does the Bible say about Death?

What happens when we die according to the Word of God?

Grief is a normal emotion yet feels completely foreign as we experience it.

The reality of loss reminds us of our mortality and the longing for more.

Fortunately, God has promised to be with us and to provide us peace in the midst of pain. His word in the Bible also can provide us the comfort when we need it most and eternal life in heaven for those who have faith in His son, Jesus Christ.

The Bible presents death as separation:

A physical death is the separation, and of the soul from the body.

A spiritual death is the separation of the soul from God.

Romans 6:23: "For the wages of sin is death."

If that is the truth, then the whole world is subject to death, because we have all sinned. We are all DOOMED?!

Romans 5:12: "By one man's sin entered into the world, and death by sin, and so death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned."

In Genesis 2:17, the Lord warned Adam that the penalty for disobedience would be death - "you will surely die."

When Adam disobeyed he experienced immediate spiritual death, which caused him to hide.

Genesis 3:8: "From the Lord God among the trees of the garden."

On the cross, Jesus also experienced physical death in Matthew 27:50.

Jesus is being killed. They have put him on a stake. Nails are driven into his hands and feet.

Why would anybody want to this to Jesus? Because they hated him?

The enemy: satan is why.

The world is dark right now. People living in fear of the collapse of the economy, worried about trash politician's agendas, worried about unemployment rates, worried about why they didn't get any LIKES on their photoshopped photos, why they didn't get 100000 followers, why they didn't get a date on the 5th dating app they're using to hook up constantly and sell their souls.

Yes, like I said I am not for everyone and I am ok with that. I am exhausted from sitting back and sighing and nodding my head in disbelief of what we are doing to pollute the world, the souls inhabiting Earth, and I am on a mission to ensure my children and generations to come don't suffer from the wickedness alive now.


My whole life I have been preparing to be a Mom. Yes, as a 28 year old woman this sounds absurd. But it's not to me. I have strategically set myself up for financial success to have children as I want to help children and future generations. I am going to change the world and help save it.

Sounds like a big responsibility, but I have prepared for this not just in this lifetime but if you are a spiritual person, let's say my soul mission continues to be this mission in every lifetime.

I have spent years in practicing and finding out who I was before and what I am supposed to do this life by past life regression.

Past life regression is a method that uses hypnosis to recover what practitioners believe are memories of past lives or incarnations.

(Curious about past-life regression and finding out who you are and were? Here: PAST LIFE REGRESSION MEDITATION


Because I had to start working my a** off since age 14. Never stopped working and hustling to make ends meet, create abundance, build generational wealth, and support my mother. I made a vow to ensure my children would never suffer from lack of love, financial necessities, proper education, nutrition, and real life lessons.

I can tell you now, mark my words and revisit this one day.

My children will be the future generational leaders in the world who will be teaching others about God, principalities, real education from being homeschooled, and entrepreneurship. I state this confidently because I have prepared myself and will do what it takes to ensure future generations get salvaged.

I digress.

Back to the story.


It was until December 1st, 2022, my 28th birthday and my REBIRTH.'

My rebirth included what Carl Jung coined as "Ego Death" and part of the "Dark Night of the Soul." Learn more here: DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL EXPLAINED

This death was intense.

I had to face my shadow self.

All of the toxic habits, toxic past catching up to bite me in the a**, and the worst part at the time was this is a death you encounter on your own. By yourself.

I spent 4 months in solitude, not loneliness. There is a difference between the two.

Lonely = in desperate need of yourself.

Solitude = the state or situation of being alone.

I enjoyed it actually. I shed my old skin off just like a snake does. I acquired amazing new habits, skills, and ideas of life that I was able to formulate my own personal philosophy on life with the help of the G.O.D.

Spiritual awakenings are intense. But they lead you to the most High, God. You learn about what he is, why he is, what he does, why he does it, and what is he trying to teach you during this intense phase?

For me writing helped and has helped during my long awakening journey. See this note I had when I started awakening in 2019. I'm glad I wrote this on my phone. the journey started then but intensified in 2022.

What happens during a Spiritual Awakening?

  1. Your life feels false

  2. You crave for meaning and purpose

  3. You want more solitude

  4. You feel completely lost and alone

  5. You see through the illusions of society

  6. You are experiencing more synchronicity

  7. You feel deeper empathy and compassion towards other human beings

If you do all the necessary things to destroy your old sense of self and kill your ego.

You come out of the cocoon as a reborn beautiful butterfly.

I began the last phase of my spiritual awakening in September of 2022. Below is a random (yes literally started drawing at 1 am one night in Sept.) And my higher-self knew it as I randomly drew this and predicted what would happen today.

Weird? Psychic? No, I am just aligned with the highest version of myself in the spirit, and I know myself and what comes next.

You can too when you remove the vail. It's fun.

Come to the light side, we got INFINITE abundance AND GOD ON OUR SIDE.

To be continued......

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May 29, 2023


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